It has been long time coming for my guilt and shame to catch up with me. I know you are thinking what guilt and shame should a Christian have. Anytime a Christian falls away from God, we end up with guilt and shame because we have thrown away a most precious gift for something we though was more shiny, was better, was what we needed at that moment. I had fallen away from God and was becoming what can be identified as a stinky Christian. Yes I was still a child of God but I wasn't living like it. My light wasn't shining for Him. I had turned dark and ugly. Worse yet, I COULD BEGIN TO SMELL MYSELF. I knew what I was doing was against God and that it would only result in more heartache and pain than mercy, grace and joy.
No being a Christian isn't about being smiling and happy all the time. It is about being to able to understand that even though I am down, I am not out. God has created me and through HIS grace and mercy, I can have joy through the storm.
Oh...boy....I have been spending the last month dwelling on WHY ME...even through my compassion for those in need, I was still only thinking about myself. I even spent last night hurt because all I could think about was myself.
I know God has blessed me with so much and I have that to share with the world. I know what my problem is...I am holding on to my Styrofoam cup, longing for the world to fill me up.....I know God created me - not just a masterpiece but a piece of the Master! I know He had my life planned out before He created me. I am trying to be that light He wants me to be.
I am still listening for His still small voice.....riding in my storm....
OOAK Jewelry creations from vintage and broken pieces (even if I use a pattern, they are never the same)!
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