Why do we try to achieve "perfection"? Because we look at others and want to be like them (Hello Hollywood...American Idol?) What does it take to stop and realize that I am not going to be famous in the eyes of the world? I have spent over 30 years wishing away time wanting to be "perfect". To be someone THE WORLD likes...to be in the right clothes, the right car, the right school, the right picture, the right song. High school was the worse. We all seem to look and see the green grass on the other side....and want to jump the fence instead of DOING SOMETHING to fix our problem. I thought I was doing something...I was...
THINKING ABOUT WHY I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH....thinking about how everyone would be happier if I had never been born. (Yes, I put a line through those THOUGHTS because that is just what they are...thoughts...things in my brain that are untrue and only cause me to keep THINKING about them until I have fallen into a hole so deep that I don't want to do anything except wallow in my self pity.)
Taking things for granted, I found myself in a low place. I still had more than some and still do. I spent last night "searching" for today's post. I couldn't get my mind to slow down and then of course several friends kept posting really amazing things on Facebook. Yes God has been using me more to encourage and motivate others. I want to challenge my friends and family to help keep each other in check. In other words, if you see, hear, think or feel that I am slipping away from my Creator...call me on it! HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE!
I am sorry this is just now getting out - I spent the day with Mom getting pool supplies, tomatoes, mosquito repellent plants, jalapenos, and the oil changed on her jeep. We also found her a new phone cover, had Mexican for lunch, and wandered around a couple of flea markets.
Peace out Brussels Sprouts!